General poems

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What I'm feeling, what I'm wanting
Something I will never understand
I don't understand the things I'm thinking
But I realize now I can't pretend
I'm not feeling ok
I'm totally not fine
I try to put my feelings away
But they're hunting me all the time
Why can't I make up my mind?
Why is it so difficult to choose?
Life is just so unkind
And I'm so afraid to lose...
Happiness lies in the history that passed away
I can't go back anymore
Yes, I can say that I'm ok
But I'll never be the happy person I used to be before
My face is marked with lost
My body is marked with pain
I paid the price that it costs
To lose, and the scars remain
I guess my entire life will be surrounded by dust
I guess the wounds will never really heal
I don't want to feel this anymore, so I must
Fight against the way I feel
Even though I doubt I can fight it, I still
Promise that I will..
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For the best friend I've ever had and ever will have...

I will never forget what he means to me
He changed my life, made me happy
No matter how hard I might fall
Just one talk with him, and he solves it all
He's my shoulder to cry on
Without him everything would go wrong
Thankful that he always listens to me
Thankful that he's as patient as can be
Thankful that I'm blessed to know him
Thankful that he's worth trusting
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Blue Eyes