I have all the reasons
in this world
to be happy
joyful, rejoicing
but I am not
I am missing something
I desire to see my home
this emptiness inside me
threatens me every day
the other life
I left behind
tugs at my heart
a strong longing
moves me to sorrow
and much pain
agony inside me
eats away at my heart
I will never be happy
not with this longing
my heart grows weaker
as the days pass by me
I do not notice
they are but distractions
from my weakness
my desperation
my reason for living
they don’t understand
my grief inside
I push them away
I despise their pity
all I desire
is this one thing
my heart longs for it
they cannot give it
so I push them away
sorrow passes like a shadow
over my heart
I cannot go on