Unanswered Questions by Larien Arnatuile
Isn’t it funny how life is so short? There must be more than a million ways to die but how many are there to be born? How many ways are there to escape death? Welcome it? Before you know it life is spent. Before you know it that One is no more. That One Person in your life is gone.
But you often wonder what became of them after death. What happens, or is there Life after Death?
These questions scare people. But not me. Why should I be scared of something like that? Why should I be scared of these questions? These things may have haunted me for a little while but after a bit, you begin to realise that you’ll find all of these questions out eventually so why fret now? These questions might be your downfall. The thing that pushes you over the edge when you are standing perched on a cliff. The thing that drowns you when your lungs are crying out for air.
I remember when I was fourteen standing on the highest hill in my land facing against the wind. My dress billowed about me as I stood contemplating what I wanted to do with my life. A strange girl had visited me that day and told me something. She was dressed strangely but she told me wise things. Almost as if she knew all about my past, present and future. She told me words of wisdom that came from an unknown woman. I almost wish I had asked who that Woman was. Her words were interesting:
“Real life is a funny thing. I think most of us fear reaching the end of our lives and regretting the moments when we didn’t speak up. When we could’ve said I love you. When we should’ve said I’m sorry. So there’s a time for silence and there’s a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel and you so clearly know what you need to say. You know it. I don’t think you should wait. I think you should speak now.”*
To this day I do not know the name of that person who spoke those words. But in that instant I knew what I wanted to do with my life. What must be done, what is a foolish dream and what can be done.
But why she visited me I do not know. Me of all people! Me, Nerella, daughter of a maid in the Horse Lord’s house! Of course ‘house’ is too poor a title for such a grand dwelling.
It has been two years exactly from that day on the hill. Today is my sixteenth birthday. Today I find out what I want. Today my questions will be answered.
* Taylor Swift said this in her Speak Now World Tour